The only thing that stays the same, is everything always changes.

So it has been a few months since my last post.  I've got my handy dandy excuse all ready though: Our entire life is changing!  Now we know where my youngest get's his flair for the dramatic.  But really, it's a lot.  We are moving to Illinois in about three weeks.  My husband got a job at a wonderful church where he will get to preach every week.  We are so excited!  We will be trading in our flip flops for snow boots, swap spending all our money on air conditioning to heat and go from living within a few hours drive of grand parents and family to a plane ride away.  Which is the hardest thing for me.  I am a self proclaimed, 100% card carrying momma's girl.

I have never taken change well.  That my friends, is the understatement of the century. But my Mom always told me: The only thing that stays the same, is everything always changes.  I guess she has been trying to get me used to the idea since birth.  Well, 32 years later, I can say I am no longer digging in my heals, going dead weight and making people drag me along. But I still have a hard time.  It's the unknown. The what if's.  But I will confess the hardest thing for me is being so far away from my my mom.

A lot of people have great moms.  And while I do like a good contest, this isn't what this post is about.  It's about reflection and gratitude. And acknowledging that God has control over all things. Even who we are born to.  My mom isn't just a good Mom. She is the reason I am here today.  I had some very particular struggles growing up.  Sometimes I look back and I think that just surviving was a miracle. But I did so much more than just survive.  I thrived.   And I did so because she taught me how.  She survived for me when I hadn't quite gotten that lesson yet and she took my burdens until I was strong enough to hold them on my own.  She taught me to trust God and to wait for him.  And then she did the most selfless thing of all. She let me go so I could do it on my own. The great irony is, if she hadn't done such a good job, I wouldn't be moving four states away and following the path God has put in place for my family.

So Mom, I hate to disagree with you . But I believe circumstances change. Destinations change. Jobs change.
But there are some stuff that don't. God's never ending love and provision.  And my love and respect for you.  Cause you have given me the greatest gift I believe a mother can give her child.  The confidence  and support to thrive. To follow God's path. And I pray that one day my boys will say the same for me.